For the past several years, I feel as though my life was quickly becoming a train wreck. I was getting older, larger, not so smart, and my spiritual growth was at a standstill. Well, I finally decided to do something about it this past year. First off, I went to Weight Watchers...I lost 15 pounds but gained most of it back...But I started feeling better about myself. Last summer, I made the decision to join a small group at a different church than the one we were going to. It was totally out of my comfort zone, because I enjoyed anonymity. We were at a big church and no one knew us. We could skip Sundays because no one was holding us accountable. But at the same time, I wasn't holding myself accountable either. I wasn't living the Godly life that I had wanted. When we joined this small group, I felt as though it was time to start living the life intended for me. I switched churches and immediately felt God's arms wrapped around me as if to say, "Well done, Good and Faithful Servant." I immediately started feeling better about myself; More confident than I had in a LONG time. I am actually started to turn to God again for my times of trouble. I even feel my husband starting to get it a little bit. He is actually teaching a lesson in a couple weeks. He will need a lot of prayer.
As I start feeling more confident, I realize that I was not put on this earth to be a stay at home mom. As much as I love my kiddos, I love them more when I am not with them all the time. I love teaching other kids the concepts of mathematics that are foreign to a lot of parents. I feel that I have a gift for it and I feel that I now have the opportunity to finally use that gift.
Yesterday, I signed up for some more classes. I have been going to the gym 3 days a week. I have lost 2 whole pounds. I have been reading the Bible and talking to God. I am really excited for this chapter in my life.